Fight!

When i hear the words, " you can fight this"! I am more confused. Can someone tell me How?

When there is no treatment, how do I feel positive and empowered to Fight?

I found a fbook today which might help me.

I can talk to my blood

I can eat better than i akways have

Excercise more or less

Sleep more

Do less.

Really need to ask ny Dr. how to Fight something that is auto immune /

Is that ne killing me? 

So complex.

Haiku

Kicking and screaming

Into the CT scam 'tomb'

A scared little girl

Kicking and screcming

Inside this 65 yr old is a small scared child who doesn't wsnt to go to the drfor aCTscan, or. PT zcan or sngmore drs vidits.

Why wasn't I asked to participate?

Pouting

Beastly

I was n

Mean today to Dan, snapped at lunch and too full of fear and stress to be normal.

Pressure, i can't take it anymire.

Stress,  i am a bottled up mess

Tired tired

Home! Tuesday at the eye dr went faitly easily. But dilated eyes until nightine and nothing ti eat in the house.

Wednesday was a Push to teach yoga and i made it through.

Obligated to see a client slrhough I needed the day off. Went to yoga, a level one. Snd ttied to find a soace to relax snd space. It was hard! Snd s long , i hr bus ridd hone.

Waking ip with muscle pain today for overdoing it yesterday. Weary snd under pressure today with two clients snd a 'party' tonight.

Not happy!

And I need to csll Atom bsck snd get his checks out written.

Reflection

Intuitively, ibelieve i have been in remission for years.

Sweet Message

And a beautiful birthday to you as well, Suzy!  This year I turned 50--and my gift to myself is to learn how to play the cello!  Oh boy, still a lot of sqeeks and squawks (why are my hands so small?), but there was a beauty I always heard in the cello that I wanted for myself, so here I go!  

I hope you are having a lovely time in Hawaii, and that you know in your bones how incredibly loved you are.

Blessed Be to you, Suzy, as we take another walk around the sun.  xoxoxoxoxo